Reflection

What we see depends mainly on what we look for.
By the same token, it sure seems like what we hear depends mainly on what we feel at that point of time.

I’ve been losing sleep. Due to various reasons, I was losing much sleep. Till now..
Sitting at my study table, with the study lights being my only source of light, brings back memories.
Memories that seemed a lil distant to me now.
Since work started, I have been so busy, either with work, or with catching up on my sleep..that I hardly have time to sit back, relax, reflect, reminiscence.
I used to do that often…it never fails to bring me peace..
Peace. Another thing which seems very distant to me these days…But for the reason on why is that so, I do not know for sure..
Perhaps its the pressure. Something so intangible, yet so powerful.
“The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it, because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots.
People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on.”

Tonight, sitting here, I look back. I reflect. And I think I’ve found the answer. For once, I feel at peace. At ease. I’m calm..For I know now, on times where it seems like things have reach a dead end, turn back. Start from square one.

And so, I hope. Because I know, that all big things started with a dream, and hope. For without hope, there would be nothing to work for, nothing to look forward to.
A friend once left me a comment in my MSN: Hope is for the weak, the strong gives people hope.
My take on this: Everyone needs hope. The difference between the strong and weak is the weak depends on another to give him/her hope. The strong finds it within himself/herself. Therefore, hope is not only for the weak..

Conclusion: Never lose sight of the bigger picture. There will be times where we get bogged down by details. Take a step back. See the picture as a whole. It is only then that we truly understand.

Decisions

When I broke the news to him, nothing much was said. Nonetheless, I could somehow feel a tinge of unhappiness in him, which was left, unsaid.
Opportunity cost. When you get something, you lose something else. That’s how things work. Someone once said this to me ” God is fair. You can’t have everything. You get something, you’ll lose something else. The question will always be, which one of the two do you want more?”

There are loads of things which I really couldn’t comprehend, and couldn’t understand. I couldn’t understand why one would give up so much for something so uncertain, I would never be able to understand why people give in so easily, and then put the blame on everything else except themselves when things don’t work out. However, over time, I came to understand that it’s a matter of priorities. There’s no right, no wrong. Simply choices.

I’ve made mine. And I guess the rest…would simply be gotta do what we’ve gotta do…